|Graphic by the wonderful Corinna Howard|
Wednesday, 6 April 2011
A First Run-Through Kinda Day
Today we had our first full run-through in the space. We also had the lighting team in to watch and work ideas for the design, so it was the first time with audience-like people seeing the show. It felt shaky for me. Probably the way a baby chick feels when walking on its skinny little legs for the first time. All in all however, I was amazed that I got through it from top to bottom with regards to lines...so that was wonderful for me!
I had been having trouble with a certain monologue that I am supposed to deliver as my mother. It is a very dark and heavy scene in which she reveals a substantial secret. I was having a hard time switching from playing my mother comically to this particular moment. So I sent her the monologue in an email and asked her to call me and read it to me when she was ready. My mother has read my script many times, she has attended 3 readings of it, 1 of which was a full reading of the entire play. However, upon being asked to read this monologue out loud herself, she claimed she didn't think it was the same as what she'd seen before and that it was "too much." She was absolutely shocked and concerned about the monologue being delivered to the public. I found this too be very interesting. Her exact words were that she didn't think it was this "explicit" before and that she hoped I would "soften" it. No matter how much I urged her to believe that the monologue has not changed (it really hasn't), she refused. I think this discrepancy in (re)cognition between listening to a performer and being asked to perform oneself is something I will investigate further.